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Wednesday, July 30, 2014

10 Things

I’m tired.  Physically and mentally exhausted.  I’m too tired to write this post but I have some things that I need to get off my chest.

1.       Words are important.  If you don’t mean it – don’t say it.

2.       Building a business is hard.  Creating a brand is hard.  Life is hard.  Not a complaint, just an observation.

3.       I’m having a difficult time making the transition from parenting children to parenting adults.  I don’t believe in gray areas but through this process I am being forced to recognize that there is a true gray area where this is concerned.  On one hand, everybody is claiming to be grown.  On the other hand, ain’t nobody paying bills but me.

4.       Hangry = feelings of anger borne from being hungry.  I really would like a pizza right about now.

5.       I have discovered why I am so discontented with my 9-to-5:  I don’t do anything meaningful all day long.  I’m a paper pusher and a messenger.  If I had a dollar for each time someone said, “Can you go to so-and-so and check the status of such-and-such?” I’d have a lot of dollars.

6.       I also realize that while I don’t think my job is “meaningful” others do.  I have received several monetary awards while in this position for outstanding performance, which is nice.  I guess.  It’s weird to receive accolades for doing something you’d rather not be doing.

7.       August is the month of prayer.

8.       September is the month I go to Hawaii for a week.

9.       October is the month I turn 50.

10.   I recognize that my “problems” are all first world.  That doesn’t negate the fact that I still see them as problems.  I’m learning to put things in proper perspective.  I have a job that allows me to go to Hawaii for a week and that’s not too shabby.  I’m surrounded by people who respect what I do and aren’t shy about letting me know it.  I’m blessed and I know it.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Lessons in Success

Here’s the thing:

Everyone is not cheering you on.

Everyone is not in your corner.

Everyone will not rejoice in your success.

And that’s okay.

That doesn’t necessarily make them “haters”.  The haters are the ones who purposefully do things to tear you down once you start being successful or believe the only way they can be successful is to tear you down.

Either way – let ‘em hate.

Some people cannot be happy for you because your success makes them feel bad about themselves.

Don’t let that stop you from doing what you need to do.  You were not put here to make other people feel good about themselves.  That is their job and quite frankly, none of your business.

It’s not all doom-and-gloom.  There are people who will genuinely rejoice with you and view your success as something positive.  They will look at you and say, “if they can do it, so can I!” and they will go on to do great things themselves.  Then you have an opportunity to rejoice with them.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Short Timer

It’s July 1st – six months down, six months to go.  I cannot even describe how happy I am to be that much closer to freedom.

I’m about to go on my first vacation of the year.  I get to be a bridesmaid in my brother’s wedding this weekend.  This is my second time being a bridesmaid.  The first time was more than 20 years ago and I’ve been a maid-of-honor twice – also 20-some years ago.  Those marriages are all still intact … for some reason that really makes me happy. 
Anyway, I’m packed and ready to go and looking forward to a few days of rest.  After my successful 100-mile challenge, I needed the break.  Next week I’ll be back at the gym, but this week is just about rest.  I love vacations where there is absolutely nothing on the agenda.  I don’t suppose this really qualifies as that … you know, because of the wedding and all, but you know what I mean.  All I have to do is put on a dress and show up.  Not exactly sure what I’m going to do with this hair (#naturalhairproblems) but I’ll figure something out.
Earlier in the week, I was passed over for an opportunity that I really wanted.  Funny thing is, I wasn't really that disappointed.  I remembered this:

And I kept it moving. 

I’m actually looking forward to what God has in store.  I know that His plan will be for my good.  I really wish I had adopted this attitude when I was younger instead of falling into a blue funk each time I didn’t get what I thought I deserved. Life would have been so much more enjoyable.
When you know better, you do better!


Friday, June 27, 2014

Who Are You Leaning On?

One reason why God allows us at times to be disappointed with our fellow human beings is so that we might learn to stop leaning on man. He desires to free us from such idolatry (for it is a form of idolatry to depend on man), so that we might learn to lean wholly upon Him alone. And so when God orders your circumstances in such a way that you are disappointed on every side, that shouldn’t discourage you. It is just God weaning you away from the arm of flesh so that you might learn to live by faith in Him. Learn to find your security in the fact that God loves you as He loved Jesus.

I took the above quote from a devotional that I recently read and it struck me.  I love getting new revelations and having the opportunity to see things in a slightly different way.
I consider myself to be a good friend.  I’m loyal.  I’m trustworthy.  I’m discrete.  I won’t tell your business.  Ironically, though I don’t have many friends.  I think the reason for that is that I hold people to a very high standard.  Maybe too high.  I don’t leave a lot of room for mistakes.  I expect people to be as good a friend to me as I am to them.  That’s not really fair, I suppose.  If a person hurts me, there is very little chance that they will be given an opportunity to do it again – because they’ve been unceremoniously cut off.  Hurt me once, shame on you.  Hurt me twice – oh yeah, there won’t be a twice.

After reading the devotional I started thinking and came to the conclusion that if I didn’t place such a heavy burden on those around me (not to disappoint me) then when disappointment comes (and it will come) I won’t be so discouraged.  People are people.  They make mistakes.  I make mistakes and if God treated me the way I treated people for making mistakes, where would I be?
It is not anyone’s job to fulfill me or make me happy.  I can’t lean on other people for that.  God wants me to lean on Him and Him alone. 

There is a challenge that comes with this belief though.  Because I don’t think that God wants us to walk the earth all alone.  I believe He wants us to be in relationships with other people but we are not to place unreasonable expectations on those that we are in relationships with.  Does that make sense?
Anyway, just something to think about.  Have a good weekend.  I’m finishing up my June 100-mile challenge tomorrow and then I’m going to the beach!