Friday, July 2, 2010

New Drawls!

Bag packed

Boarding pass printed

All systems are go, my friends.

I’m leaving on a jet plane, don’t know when I’ll be back again. Actually, I’ll be back on Monday but wouldn’t it be awesome to just escape without a thought as to when you had to return? Hmmmmmm. Something to think about but I really do enjoy the life that I have so coming back to it is something I’m also looking forward to.

By this time next week, I should have a new (to me) car. I’ve pretty much settled on the Honda. Or maybe a Mazda6. Or maybe a Mitsubishi Eclipse. Yeah, I’ll probably get the Honda.

Not having a car has reeked havoc on my workout schedule (boo) but I will definitely get back on track next week. I’m also going to hold myself to a much stricter diet after this weekend. Abs are made in the kitchen, you know.

I have a lot to say but moving what I have to say from my head to the screen is proving to be quite difficult. I wonder why. I’ve been composing this post for at least 96 days but I just can’t seem to get it together. Okay, let’s try this … you know when you’re pregnant (or know someone that is/was) and you don’t want to share the news too early because you don’t want to jinx it? Know what I mean?

No, I’m not pregnant!
I’m almost 46 years old!!!
What I look like bringing more babies into the world??

Anyway, I didn’t share that I was single again 96 days ago because I wasn’t sure if this breakup would take. I’ve walked away from my almost seven year relationship quite a few times but I always went back. This time … not so. I ended it at the end of February and haven’t seen or spoken to him since March 28th. This one has definitely taken. I am finally free. We would have “celebrated” our 7th anniversary tomorrow but instead I’m taking off and celebrating my freedom.

I won’t go into the details because it’s really none of your business. It just wasn’t working and hadn’t been for a while but my fear kept me there. Fear of looking like a failure. But I finally realized that I would rather look like a failure than stay in something that isn’t working for me. Enough already.

Don’t worry, this blog isn’t going to turn into the “Single Girl Woes” cause I don’t have any woes. I’m fine but I needed time to process this whole thing and try and figure out how to function as a single woman again. The journey is interesting. I’m rediscovering things about myself that I had been ignoring for way too long.

And I threw away all my thongs.





Enjoy the long weekend and I’ll see you when I get back.

9 comments:

TJ said...

Enjoy your long weekend!!! Isn't new underwear great?

Diva (in Demand) said...

Have a great time!

ali said...

Have a wonderful time!!

LadyLee said...

What, What, What??? Ya'll broke up.

*Lee throwing self out of window and into oncoming traffic*

Ugh.

Well hon, I was sitting here, mouth agape, hollering "She's pregnant!?" *crickets*. You're not too old. Just watched somethin on tv the other day where a woman gave birth at 70. We are NEVER too old. lol

Do what's best for you, hon. That is all.

Have a great trip. Enjoy the weekend.

Terry said...

Hope you're having a good weekend.

Luv said...

lmbo... so u threw out your thongs...does that mean you ain't going to be wearing drawls or u just going to stick to the granny drawls?

enjoy your vacation.. get everything out of it that you need...

and the journey continues

Kissyfur said...

:-)For me thongs never took.

w said...

enjoy your new found independence. also. congrats? on throwing away your thongs...

This One Woman said...

I hope you had a wonderful trip!