Not So Subtle Changes

I have never been more aware of my body than I am now. It probably started within the past 18 months or so. That was when I started noticing changes. Now I notice everything. Every inch. Every pound. Every ache. Every sound. I notice everything. The texture of my skin seems to be changing. I had to adjust my moisturizer. My midsection seemed thicker. I had to adjust my diet. More gray hair is sprouting through. I have to touch up my roots. My backside seems rounder. No changes needed. LOL

Getting older is fascinating. As I sip on my green tea I tell myself that I still feel relatively young. Even though I’m in bed before 10:00 pm and I wake up at 5:00 am. I vaguely remember a time when I would come home with the sun. I don’t miss those days. I was a little too reckless back then. It’s amazing I made it through.

Anyway

My lower back is giving me fits. When I got home from work yesterday I was supposed to do my cardio but instead I stayed home and did some yoga. Then I sat on my stability ball and did bicep curls, shoulder press and tricep extensions. Then I laid on the floor with my legs extended upward for about 20 minutes.

I’m feeling pretty good now. But I think the real culprit is my bed. It sucks. I’m getting a new one. In fact, I’m redecorating my entire bedroom. I have never in my adult life had a matching bedroom set. Is that weird? Just pieces thrown together. I updated the kids’ rooms a few years ago but I never did anything to my own. Then last year when my ex moved, he gave me his old bed and dresser. And now I feel some kinda way about sleeping in my ex’s old bed. I feel like objects carry spirits and I don’t need his spirit all up in my bedroom. My sanctuary. So, I’m redecorating!

That may have all sounded like a huge rationalization so I can buy some new stuff … but I don’t care. I’ll be scouring HGTV for ideas, just like I did when I bought the house. This is going to be fun. I’m doing everything, bed, dresser, night stand, lighting, wall hangings, linens, window treatments, chaise … I feel so grown up.

I want it to be feminine and modern. Calm and comfortable. I may get rid of the television. I’m not painting and I’m not changing the flooring, but everything else is getting a complete makeover.

Here are a few things that caught my eye:

I like the pillows and the bench at the foot of the bed.

I like the framed artwork over the bed.

I like the headboard and the lamp.

I just like everything about this room. I think it's the lighting.