Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Today's Truth

Truth: It feels as though my workload has increased exponentially since I returned from vacation.

Isn't that always the way, though? I dread coming back from vacation and having to trudge through hundreds of emails. Even though I had someone cover my desk, he can't do everything and maintain his own workload. I've been working like a Hebrew slave ever since I got back. No time for my usual slacking to blog, check facebook or twitter ... oh well, what am I supposed to do, not take vacations? Not gonna happen. I'm hoping I'll be caught up by the end of the week.

Truth: I am never going to have the body I want if I don't work harder.

Okay, but here's the thing: I'm terrible at self-motivation. I know what I need to do. I need to develop a cross-training routine which includes strength training as well as be a little more disciplined with my diet. I know that but do you think I'll just do it? Sometimes I suck. Not all the time, but sometime. My problem is that when I look in the mirror, I kinda like what I see. It's not the body I want but it's not bad. It's actually pretty good -- so where do I get the motivation? Suggestions welcome.

Truth: I have to push myself if I'm going to get out of the 2-3 mile comfort zone.

I want to improve my speed and distance but when I start to feel uncomfortable during my run, I'm ready to stop. So, here's the thing: I met my 5k goal (sort of) so I'm losing my motivation to get better. Again, sometimes I suck.

Truth: I cannot be my kid's safety net forever.

It is not my responsibility to put gas in my 21-year old's car. I know his employment situation has been shaky for the past couple of months but he seems to do everything he wants to do but when it comes to stuff he needs to do (like put gas in his car) he expects me to pick up the slack. I'm tired. He needs to figure it out. When I was his age I had to figure out how to pay rent, utilities, car payment and gas, plus feed and clothe myself. He'll be okay.

Truth: If I don't completely leave the past behind, I will never successfully walk into my future.

Enough said.


Diva (in Demand) said...

I have a post that I've been working on for probably 4 months titled "Honest Truths". It takes bravery untold to be able to be honest with yourself.

chele said...

@ Diva: I have a post called "Filtered Truth" that I need to complete. But even if it's filtered, it's still difficult to face. You post yours, and I'll post mine!

Anonymous said...

Someone once said that "good is the enemy of excellence" (or something to that effect). In terms of your running (and, I imagine, your body), you've had a *good* start but now you need to step up your game if you want to meet your *actual* 5K goal of 30 minutes. If you're okay with completing the 5K without walking, then so be it. But, knowing you, that's not okay. It's gonna be hard, but hey, if it wasn't it wouldn't be worth it! Remember:
"In order to get something that you've never had, you have to do something that you've never done." The *easy* thing is that you know what you have to do...the harder things is -- oh hell, I don't need to tell you what you already know!

Love you, mpo