It was a year ago this week that I first contacted USA Elite Trainers. My initial goal was just to look better and feel better about how I looked. I’ve never really had any real health issues: cholesterol fine, blood pressure fine, I don’t get colds or the flu – overall I’m a very healthy woman. I don’t concern myself (that much) with aging because I don’t look my age and most of the time I don’t feel it. I reached out to the trainers because I wanted to change what I saw when I looked in the mirror. Some people do it through cosmetic surgery; I decided to do it with diet and exercise. To each his own.
After I got into the training and began to see results I became interested in competing. Mainly because everyone around me continually told me that it was something that I could do so I decided to give it a shot. I didn’t know if I would treat it as a bucket list item or if it would be something that I would continue to do. I didn’t have the answer to that question until I stepped off the stage after the first show. I knew then that I had to continue.
So I did a second show. After that show I was so happy to be done competing. I wanted a break from the strict diet mostly. Not the training because I love being in the gym. Challenging myself to left heavier each week gives me a thrill that I can’t explain. After about a month it dawned on me that I really wanted to compete again. Not just compete but become a professional. I was hesitant about setting a goal like that before because, let’s face it, I’m not getting any younger (49 in 4 days) and no one turns pro overnight. I never wanted to be the chick in her fifties prancing across a stage.
But then I come back to the fact that I don’t look like I’m in my fifties and as long as I don’t embarrass myself I think I can keep going until I earn pro status and compete as a professional – and hopefully win.
As long as I stay focused on that goal I’m good. But then the frequent hot flashes, night sweats and mysterious aches and pains that come with being a woman my age quickly remind me that I may not have many competing years left. I feel like my body is betraying me. My mind says to push through but my body says something else to sabotage me. It’s a constant struggle. My mind is winning though. I keep getting up every morning to train to make my body stronger. I’m mindful about what I feed myself without being a fanatic. It’s a healthy balance.
The past year has taught me a lot about myself and who I want to be. I never thought making one phone call could change my life so completely. It's amazing.