Monday, March 3, 2008


I'm usually not this drifty.

Or maybe I am and I just didn't know it.

I had several ideas for a post and now I can't remember any of them. I know one had to do with exercise and how I'm not getting enough. I'm frustrated by the fact that I can't touch my toes. I live a very sedentary life and it's depressing the hell outta me. I should be more active.

I was also going to do a post about how I was sick all weekend and because of that I've decided to lay off the alcohol for a month. What does one have to do with the other? Not a thing. It's just that I rarely get sick so when I do I think about what I did to cause it ... what I'm putting into my body and what I'm not getting enough of. So, I've deduced that I'm not eating enough leafy greans and I'm drinking too much. Neither one is probably true but having more salads and less wine isn't going to kill me, right?

I could write about my mattress.

I could write about the spring time.

I could write about hating my job.

I could write about retirement and college expenses.

I'm usually not this drifty.

I swear in the last couple of months you could tell what I was "in to" by the books that littered my nightstands: Stephen Carter's novel, several personal finance books, the Bible, books about publishing, the book that O is touting called A New Earth. I don't think I've finished one of them yet. Meanwhile, my book is coming along swimmingly. I'm having a "bridge moment" though. That means that I know what's going to happen next I'm just stuck on how to get there.

I'm having a hard time focusing on what I'm supposed to be doing. I have no clarity. My head is all fuzzy and I'm operating on autopilot.

Today when I get home I'm going to flip my mattress and then I'm going to take a long walk around the neighborhood to clear my head.


Sharon said...

Hey Chele,
Please take me with you on that walk because I am in the same cloud you find yourself drifting in right now. The only thing I seem to be able to focus on long enough to complete is short poetry. Everything else is asking for too much from me right now. I need to get out of this state of being (cause it's not just my mind), because I've got big plans for this year.

Now that you mention it, my mattress could stand a flip as well :)

lyre said...

random thoughts Monday

Aunt Jackie said...

what does one do with a pillow top mattress you can't flip?

Drifty...I think that could explain my train of thought to a tee..

maybe I'll take a lunch time walk, and try not to end up at home:-)

Luke Cage said...

Hey Chele, I've actually been the opposite. What is the opposite of drifty? I have so many things lined up from artwork to posts to hooking up with friends that I can't wait to get to all of them and find myself being something I cannot stand to be. Impatient! But when I get drifty, I settle in and watch a good movie from my collection. That usually does the trick.

Blah Blah Blah said...

...I am in a constant state of "drifty". I've been here for well past 4 years...
I'mma just say it's the new way of

LadyLee said...

I think we get drifty because our vision is a little cloudy (from our heads being in the clouds, I suppose.)

This month, I'm having to get together some type of vision poster for myself for my next journal writers meeting. And I'm finding that I need a vision if I'm going to have focus, or the least amount of motivation to jump the slack out of my a$$ so I can move forward... So I ask you, Oldgirl, you got your vision together?