It's Monday Again

It's 6:30 a.m.

I have a doctor's appointment today and then I'm going to work the rest of the day from home. After the weekend I had I'm not sure how effective I would be at the office anyway. The weekend was wonderful as it was the first really warm weekend of the season and I love the warm weather. Except that my practically brand new AC system decided not to work ... this is the second time these guys are going to have to come out here and flip a switch or do whatever they do. Good thing it's April and not August. I don't want a repeat of last year when I spent four days in a hotel because I couldn't bear the 100 degree heat in my house. So far, the inside has only gotten up to 84 degrees. Right now it's 77.

Did anyone see Obs.essed over the weekend? My daughter saw it with a friend of hers and she said it was an okay movie. I'll probably still wait for the DVD. I did watch Mi.lk on demand on Saturday night. I love Se.an Pe.nn. Just love him.

Yesterday's message at church was a powerful one. The pastor spoke about letting go of the past and freeing ourselves to live the life that God has intended for us. God intends for us to live abundantly but so many of us are willing to settle for "just enough". Ever go to church and feel like the message is for you? Like after every sentence the pastor should be saying your name? That's how I felt yesterday. I know I hold on to things for way too long and it has completely blocked me from certain things that should have been mine years ago. It all starts with the renewing of your/my mind. There is no benefit in holding on to past hurts or disappointments. Don't negate them but learn to accept and let go. That is the only way we can move forward. You with me?

Drifty

I'm usually not this drifty.

Or maybe I am and I just didn't know it.

I had several ideas for a post and now I can't remember any of them. I know one had to do with exercise and how I'm not getting enough. I'm frustrated by the fact that I can't touch my toes. I live a very sedentary life and it's depressing the hell outta me. I should be more active.

I was also going to do a post about how I was sick all weekend and because of that I've decided to lay off the alcohol for a month. What does one have to do with the other? Not a thing. It's just that I rarely get sick so when I do I think about what I did to cause it ... what I'm putting into my body and what I'm not getting enough of. So, I've deduced that I'm not eating enough leafy greans and I'm drinking too much. Neither one is probably true but having more salads and less wine isn't going to kill me, right?

I could write about my mattress.

I could write about the spring time.

I could write about hating my job.

I could write about retirement and college expenses.

I'm usually not this drifty.

I swear in the last couple of months you could tell what I was "in to" by the books that littered my nightstands: Stephen Carter's novel, several personal finance books, the Bible, books about publishing, the book that O is touting called A New Earth. I don't think I've finished one of them yet. Meanwhile, my book is coming along swimmingly. I'm having a "bridge moment" though. That means that I know what's going to happen next I'm just stuck on how to get there.

I'm having a hard time focusing on what I'm supposed to be doing. I have no clarity. My head is all fuzzy and I'm operating on autopilot.

Today when I get home I'm going to flip my mattress and then I'm going to take a long walk around the neighborhood to clear my head.