Tuesday, April 22, 2008

18



**sigh**


My son received his cap and gown today. He called me at work and said, "Ma! Guess what I'm holding in my hands right now?" He was so excited. He still hasn't tried it on yet. Maybe he's not that excited.


He's behind me right now wearing a XXL jersey and a pair of socks. It looks like a dress. He's playing Dan.ce Dan.ce Rev.olu.tion, eating oatmeal cookies and texting. "Watch me, Ma! Watch me!" he says.


When I got home from work he was waiting for me to watch Clo.ver.fie.ld with him. I made some stroganoff and joined him in the living room to watch the movie.


"What would you say if I told you that I missed (his ex-girlfriend)?" "I would say that I understand but you'll get over it. She drove you crazy." His slight grin is hiding what he is really feeling. Still dancing. Still texting.


He's going to be 18 in less than three months. I had moved out by the time I was 18 and I never recall spending any quality time with my mother. Times certainly are different. And I realize that Tuesdays like today are the reason why I get so sad when I think about him moving out. When I think about him graduating. When he leaves the house in the morning and doesn't return until after I've gone to bed.


I'm blessed.


9 comments:

lyre said...

i feel ya

Blu Jewel said...

Aww! *sniff* that's really beautiful and I think it's great that you both are close. Though he'll move out and move on, you'll always be his #1 lady and he'll come back often.

Love!

Bballmom said...

That's a great picture of you guys.

They grow up and out so quickly. My oldest turns 19 on the 28th. Still hard to believe.

Sharon said...

I am so there with you on this one Chele!

Mica said...

He's not moving out now(just cuz he's 18) is he? Is he going away for college?
Well....Just be proud of how well you've raised a great man:-)

Blah Blah Blah said...

I went on a HBCU college tour with the Odlest this whole week... every school he looked at I was thinking...could I loive in this city?
Still thinking about moving to Maryland but he likes Virginia State...may have to look into work in Norfolk...just sayin'...lol

YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe said...

*cough cough* pretty lil' untouched thing in NC wants to move up there for college *cough cough*

See? E.X. girlfriend problem solved. haha

My daughter has been up under me alot lately. Not that I mind. I think she's in her "I only got 1 Momma" mood. Nearly dumped her lil' boyfriend because he was cutting into "our" time ...she ended up dumping him anyway, but...dayum, I felt special behind that!

Shai said...

LOL. I feel ya. My daughter will be 18 in August. She is excited and nervous about turning 18. We got her prom dress recently and she was a mix of emotions. And that day she was up under me right before we left for shopping. LOL.

Aunt Jackie said...

oh goodness ya'll look lovely. i don't have any babies, much less any half grown ones...but every time I look at my 19 year old brother I realize that in another world he could be my son..running around crashing his girlfriend's car, lying about his grades...

i guess i'll be an old ass momma or not one at all.