Someone asked me recently if I missed the feeling of getting lost in someone.
You know that feeling ... your every waking moment is consumed with thoughts of that person. When they are not around it's almost as if part of you is missing. Their smile brightens up your day. You feel like you can't exhale until you hear their voice.
Do I miss it?
I'm not cold or devoid of all human emotion but I've discovered that those feelings that I've described above are fleeting. My life is filled to the brim with those kinds of moments and yet I go to sleep at night and wake up each morning alone.
I want something concrete. Something that is going to last longer than just until the sweat dries.
I did a video about getting lost and subsequently going through the process of finding myself. I don't ever want to be lost again. I want to maintain who I am and be with someone who appreciates who I am and doesn't expect me to do back flips in order to be in his world.
I'm too old to do back flips.