So here I am, less than 5 weeks away from my first figure competition. I’ve done the training. I’ve done the dieting. I’ve got the suit and accessories and I’m ready for it to be done so I can move on to the next thing.Not sure what the next thing is though. I constantly dip my pinky toe into different things but I don’t stick with any of them. Remember when I fashioned myself as a writer? Singer? Food critic? Book critic? Runner?
Geez, I seem a little flighty. But I’m not. I would however, just like to find something that really makes my heart sing. Something that will be “my thing”. You know what I mean?
I still like to write, just not books. I still enjoy singing, just not in bars. I love love love writing about my favorite restaurants but I’ve changed my diet so I have to find new favorite restaurants that fit my lifestyle. I still love reading, but who has the time? And I still run, but it’s not the main focus of my fitness regimen. I love lifting weights and watching how my body responds but come on, that’s only like an hour a day.
I keep thinking I need a break from everything but that doesn’t seem to always work out. I intended for 2013 to be my quiet year. So how did I end up competing in a figure competition? **shrugs**
I’m going to take the week of July 4th to really analyze what I plan to do next. I just want to take the next year and finish my degree and make some concrete plans to further my professional life. This quarter I’m only taking one class and this summer I plan to take two CLEP tests. Gym time took the place of study time.
I’m happiest when I’m working on myself. There is always room for improvement which is why I went back to school, which is why I threw myself into strength training. I just want to be a better version of myself. I’m just not certain what that looks like yet.