I have a list.
A list of 101 tasks that I have to complete in 1001 days.
Deadline: February 14, 2013
There are a bunch of fun and frivolous things on the list but there are also some serious things as well. In fact, the first thing on the list is to give blood.
I’ve told myself for years that I’m too terrified of needles and anxiety follows me every time I have my blood drawn. That was always my excuse for not giving blood. Fear.
You know what’s coming next, right?
I refuse to allow fear to control me!
Deadline: February 14, 2013
There are a bunch of fun and frivolous things on the list but there are also some serious things as well. In fact, the first thing on the list is to give blood.
I’ve told myself for years that I’m too terrified of needles and anxiety follows me every time I have my blood drawn. That was always my excuse for not giving blood. Fear.
You know what’s coming next, right?
I refuse to allow fear to control me!
Besides, if I can voluntarily get these tattoos and endure that kind of pain, I can certainly suck it up for a good cause and give blood. Right?
I’ve shared before my issues with my low iron levels. I have been faithfully taking my iron supplements, everyday twice a day for a few months in preparation for today’s blood drive. I knew that my levels would be acceptable and I would be able to check the box on my list and do a good thing too.
The lady pricked my finger and my iron level was not acceptable to donate.
I’ve shared before my issues with my low iron levels. I have been faithfully taking my iron supplements, everyday twice a day for a few months in preparation for today’s blood drive. I knew that my levels would be acceptable and I would be able to check the box on my list and do a good thing too.
The lady pricked my finger and my iron level was not acceptable to donate.
WTF???
I wanted to scream but instead I just sat there and cried. How could my levels not have increased? How could I have finally decided to conquer this fear and be prevented from moving forward?
Thankfully, God put someone in front of me who had some wisdom and compassion. She handed me some tissues and told me that my heart was in the right place and that was all that mattered. She reminded me that just because I had a plan today, that it clearly wasn't God's plan for me today. She said that God saw my heart. That was one of the few times that I had heard that expression and actually felt that it was sincere. She reminded me of the courage that it took to get on that blood mobile and volunteer. The Red Cross really needs blood and so many people don’t even consider donating. I used to be that person.
I’m going to keep taking my iron supplements but my doctor and I are going to have a serious talk come October.
I wanted to scream but instead I just sat there and cried. How could my levels not have increased? How could I have finally decided to conquer this fear and be prevented from moving forward?
Thankfully, God put someone in front of me who had some wisdom and compassion. She handed me some tissues and told me that my heart was in the right place and that was all that mattered. She reminded me that just because I had a plan today, that it clearly wasn't God's plan for me today. She said that God saw my heart. That was one of the few times that I had heard that expression and actually felt that it was sincere. She reminded me of the courage that it took to get on that blood mobile and volunteer. The Red Cross really needs blood and so many people don’t even consider donating. I used to be that person.
I’m going to keep taking my iron supplements but my doctor and I are going to have a serious talk come October.
