I was commenting to someone earlier today that I have never, in almost 45 years, sat down and just thought about the things that would make me happy. I mean really, really happy. The kind of happy that leaves you with a permanent Joker-grin. Consequently, I have never achieved that kind of happiness. Odd. Since I am the queen of planning and making lists why haven’t I ever taken the time to make this particular list? I think the reason lies in the fact that I have somehow believed that happiness just kind of happens. Either you have it or you don’t. Historically, I have been the person who goes through life allowing things to happen instead of purposefully making things happen. And because of that I have to play the cards that I have been dealt and make the most of it. I have had happy times in my life. Moments of joy. Like when I took my kids to Disney. Or when I bought my house. But those moments were fleeting and few. I would like to have sustained joy in my life. While on vacation next week I hope to use my time on the beach to really think about the things that I want in my life that will make me happy. When I say “things” I don’t only mean things that I have to purchase. You know, like my dream home on the ocean. I also mean circumstances that will bring me joy. Like seeing my children succeed in their lives. Sometimes, I’m so scatter-brained and it’s difficult for me to stay focused. It’s difficult to just sit and think without drifting off to other directions. Difficult, but not impossible. Hell, I know there is nothing I can’t do once I put my mind to it. I broke my own rule and hopped on the scale over the weekend … I’m down another pound suckas! And I’m wearing a dress today that used to make my tummy look poofy because of the rouching.
I just checked the spelling of rouching and came across the urban dictionary’s definition. Gross!!
Wait a minute …
See how easily I lose focus?
Hope you are having a great day!