Day 24

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] (Matthew 11:28)

I am excited about what is in store for me. “Excited” isn’t even the right word. I can’t describe it. Does it sound strange when a writer says, “I can’t describe it”? Anyway, I have driven myself to the point where I am overwhelmed. I lay in my bed last night and just cried and it wasn’t only because I was watching Gre.y’s Ana.tomy. I was thinking about all the hours of research and reading and writing that I’ve been doing. I’ve been thinking about all the work that lay ahead of me. I had all those thoughts swimming around in my head and it just felt like too much. So much so that I had to reassure myself that I CAN DO THIS. I had to write that sentence repeatedly until I believed it again.

I CAN DO THIS.

I came home from work yesterday to find a note on the refrigerator that was titled: Meals Your Son Enjoys. He thought it was funny and I did tell him months ago to make me a list since he doesn’t seem to like how my tastes have changed. So he did it … I just didn’t need to see it yesterday. Yesterday it just served as a reminder of where I am falling short.

I CAN DO THIS.

On Saturday I plan to do a tour of the city and check out the independent bookstores. I want to see the setups, locations, what non-book items are offered, etc. Just so I can get some ideas. So tonight after work and after the gym, I’ll have to go to the grocery store and relax my hair since there will be no time tomorrow.

I’m tired.

Last night before I drifted off to sleep the above verse came to me. I know what God has for me. I will not get everything done in one day, week, month or year. I need to give myself a break but I feel if I don’t do something everyday that gets me to my goal than I have already failed. But I have to remember that yes, I should do something everyday, but I can’t do EVERYTHING everyday.

I CAN DO THIS.