From Day 1 I expected a miracle. I expected to wake up and be a new person. It doesn’t quite work that way. I still have my emotional outbursts, just not as often. I still get angry, just not as often. I do find myself giving people the benefit of the doubt. I also noticed that I’m making more of an effort to resolve conflict more quickly. When I think about it … that is a miracle.
It’s a process.
Have you ever seen one of your ugly traits on someone else and only then did you realize how ugly it actually was? For example, it wasn’t until I saw someone being overly defensive that I realized how defensive I could be and how that is really and truly not a good look. I’m working on that. There are so many things that have to be done. Not just for me … but I know that I have to be a better example to the Prince and the Princess. When I’m gone, I want them to remember me in a fond way. I want them to think highly of me. I want them to know that anything is possible.
Luke 18:27 – The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.
6 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself. I think what your doing is great, but it does take time to reprogram. I think the Prince and Princess are lucky to have you and they will know that.
Your efforts to be and do better will be recognized, especially concerning the children.
They watch your every move! ;)
Furthermore, I believe being transparent is a gift that is worthy of passing on, and also to be remembered by.
Day 35...and there is progress, and loads of introspection.
I am finding with myself that when I realize and acknowledged that there's a problem, I've won half the battle... in that realization alone.
We are all under construction until the day we die. God is like a patient blacksmith, chiseling away the rough parts, refining the best parts, in an effort to perfect us.
And I am happy for that. Keep going forward, Oldgirl!
Little miracles happen every day. :)
I find a lot of my unappealing traits in my son and that's when I realize that I have to check myself while I'm checking him. It seems as if you're accomplishing much through this.
It takes time to undo learned behaviour. The most improtatnt thing you've done so far is to actually make a change in your life, which is much better than most other people.
No one is flawless.
Love to live; live to love!
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