Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Restoration


I saw this idea on someone else’s blog and I thought it was fabulous, so I stole it. Instead of making lists of resolutions I have chosen one word that will define 2011 for me. In 2010 the phrase was “no fear” and in 2011 my word is


RESTORE

Dictionary.com defines restore as follows:

–verb (used with object), -stored, -stor·ing.
1. to bring back into existence, use, or the like; reestablish: to restore order.
2. to bring back to a former, original, or normal condition, as a building, statue, or painting.
3. to bring back to a state of health, soundness, or vigor.
4. to put back to a former place, or to a former position, rank, etc.: to restore the king to his throne.
5. to give back; make return or restitution of (anything taken away or lost).

How appropriate for me.

For years, I have felt like I didn’t even really exist. Like I was always the background to someone else’s foreground. In 2011, I will be in the foreground.

I haven’t been comfortable in my own skin because I was conforming to what you (whomever YOU are) thought I should be instead of following my own mind. In 2011, I’m coming back to my normal or original condition.

Whatever I felt I have lost over the years, will be brought back to me. I will take my rightful place. I will stand tall.

I used to believe that I took really good care of myself. I mean, I don’t skimp on the “me” time. I treat myself often. I very rarely go without. But the truth is, when it comes to emotional matters, matters of the heart, I seem to be lacking. It’s difficult to explain other than to say that in certain situations I find it easier to put on a mask that reflects who you think I am. And in the process I may have forgotten who I really am.

In 2011 I will be restored.

7 comments:

TJ said...

I used to have a word per year. I had it framed on my desk. Restoration is a great one.

Shai said...

I feel the same way about being comfortable in my own skin. *sigh*

Diva (in Demand) said...

Restoration is a very good "theme" to have for the year. After seeing how you tackled fear I'm anxious to read along as you go through restoring yourself.

Cyncere Sister said...

Good One! I'm stealing as well :) --Restoration...let me ponder... but great post!!!

lyre said...

Hey girl. Thinking of doing some more blogging. Love you!

Anonymous said...

AMEN.....i'm cheering for you...

dee in san diego

LadyLee said...

Restore. Now that's a powerful word. Can't wait to see where it takes you in 2011