Describing the last few days as interesting would be an understatement. Up and down, up and down, emotions just all over the place and I really hate that. I need stability.
On Wednesday I got to work with two new clients and it was fantastic. Both women were between 50-60 and they had different goals and I’m creating programs for both of them. I really felt like what I did mattered. I felt validated.
Note to self: I need to learn to validate myself on a daily basis and not wait for events to occur in order to have that feeling
I was floating on air for a few days, feeling secure in the fact that I made the right decision for my future. Then today I felt challenged and I had to fight really hard not to lash out. Days like today remind me why I prefer my company to the company of others.
Then I realized something. I realized that whenever I face challenges I really should be looking for the lesson in the challenge. Otherwise, the challenge will continue to pop up and I will continue to face it and these challenges have a way of clouding my vision to the good things that are happening.
Case in point: I had to give a presentation today and the topic was fitness nutrition. At the end of the presentation the sponsor of the event took me aside and critiqued my performance – not the content but some performance points. At the same event, another presenter – a doctor and specialist in health education – spoke to me about what I do and expressed an interest in possibly having me come to work for their foundation as a trainer for seniors. However, because I was focused on the criticism I forgot to be grateful for the new opportunity and ingratitude is one of the quickest ways to block a blessing.
The truth is I should have taken the criticism and moved on. As I think about it now it really wasn’t something to be upset about. Here’s the thing, when something tiny offends you it is very easy to add a bunch of other things to it and blow it completely out of proportion – like the fact that he got my last name wrong on the presentation materials. We’ve been working together for almost a month and you can’t be bothered to remember my last name … really?
Okay I’m done. I’m letting it go now. For real.
The lessons for today are: learn to give people grace and always stay focused on the good. Easier said than done, but I have to make the effort.