Sunday, January 27, 2008

Have To

Are you ruled by the "have to" or the "want to"?

Everything in my life is "have to". Everything.

Revelation: I swear if I didn't have two people living with me that depended on me to eat, I would quit my job tomorrow, sell my house, go back to school and major in journalism, and get a job in a bookstore.

Fact: I'm only 43 years old. Since when is 43 the end? I cannot live the next 43 years doing something I hate.

Realization: Just because you're good at something doesn't mean that's what you're supposed to do with the rest of your life. I'm great at what I do and it pays really well ... but guess what? I hate it.

I'm going to do something about this. I have to. It's so easy for me to encourage my guy to strike out on his own and do his own thing, and he's doing it successfully. I'm so proud of him. Telling my son to figure out how to make money doing what he loves, comes naturally. Why haven't I been able to encourage myself in the same fashion?

I say that I want to write ... well, how come I'm not writing everyday? The same way I did when I wrote my first novel? Everyday without fail. I can't remember a time when I was more joyful.

I can't allow another year to slip by like this.

Coming soon: The Plan.

8 comments:

Luke Cage said...

Hey miss Chele luv. I hear you talking miss. And yes, there is a "have to" kind of thing going on in my life. Some it I welcome, some of it I say, dayum I wish I didn't Have to. But I'm with you. If I wasn't married, I can't tell you how many things I would just wake up and do at the spur of the moment.

Though the wife is as supportive as ever, many of the things that I would like to do come with risks that I cannot afford to take in case they don't work out. And that wouldn't be fair to her. Having said that, I do have some things in the works that I've always "wanted" to do and will do soon.

Wait till you see pictures of me showing what the ground below looks like when I'm about 5,000 feet in the air with land quickly rushing up to meet me! ;) Hi Chele!

Diva (in Demand) said...

Go for it Chele!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! Hell we can all do it! 2007 was a year of preparation. We took the time to identify issues, concerns, and goals. 2008 is when the metal meets the pavement big sis!

Remember...FAITH!

lyre said...

I made more money in 1991 than I did this year. But you know what? I LOVE MY PROFESSION! And here is amotivator I received my Masters degree in 2005. I was 49! DO IT!

I want to move but I have to wait until my son and his lady get themselves together.

Sharon said...

Having been a single mother for 18 years I definitely feel you on this one Chele! You know I love my son without reservation, but because I had him, there were so many things I had to do that were I only responsible for me I NEVER would have done.

As he gets closer to college and stepping into the world on his own, my level of responsiblility for him is sure to lighten significantly and on my way to 43 as well in a few short weeks, I see nothing but opportunity ahead!

So just like you encourage your children, your guy, and most likely anyone else in your life who needs it, I WILL TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ENCOURAGING YOU ONTO MYSELF. So do whatever needs to be done to ensure that your house is in order because we both know you would not be able to do ANYTHING AT ALL OTHERWISE, then run with your arms wide-spread into the embrace of whatever it is that your heart truly desires! You already know that everything will be just fine so whatcha waiting for?

I know you can so go be the Little Engine That Could! :)

Mega Rich said...

Girl, you are preaching to the choir. The job I have now is just to pay the bills so that I can support my at-home wife and five kids.

Just today, I wanted to take another day off because I'm not yet over this cold, but I figured I "have to" go to work to keep these folks from having anything negative to say in regards to moi.

Blu Jewel said...

you can and will do whatever you put your mind to accomplish. I wish you the very best with it, because I too am not going to settle for something I'm good at instead of doing what I love.

Blah Blah Blah said...

Do it!
Awesome.
I think about doing the same thing every day. and thing is...I could. I live alone...no kids at home, no man...just me.

LadyLee said...

You know, I loved your first two masterpieces... and am eagerly awaiting the third.

I am finding that the "have to do" needs to be tempered with the "Want to do". Yeah, I HAVE to go to work, to pay the bills, but at the same time, I must keep myself involved with those things that I am passionate about.

So get up, girl... and start off small. Write for 5 minutes a day. That will get you an inch closer to your goal.