What am I talking about? I'm 11 years into this elephant. Eleven years! I'm overwhelmed and I shouldn't be. I also realize I'm being very vague but at this point I don't have any other choice. This whole thing reminds me of the story of Peter walking on water. After Jesus walked on the water he commanded Peter to get out of the boat and walk on the water as well. As long as Peter kept his eyes on Jesus he accomplished what was thought to be the impossible. As soon as he began to pay attention to the storm and not Jesus he began to sink. (Matthew 14:29-33)
Sometimes I feel as though I'm about to sink.