Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Raindrops on Roses and Whiskers on Kittens

I am a relatively happy person. Generally, I prefer happiness to the alternative. Admittedly, this was not always the case. There have been times in the not-so-distant past when I have been characterized as an evil bitch.

Hard to believe, right?

Well, being evil all the time did not serve me so I had to make some changes. Now, I wouldn’t consider myself a “Mary Sunshine” and I don’t see rainbows and butterflies where there are none but I do have a huge amount of faith which allows me to see the bright side in most situations.

This can be annoying to some people who can’t see beyond their current situation. Sorry.

I have been blogging for about five years and for those of you who have been around for a while you may remember that this is one of my favorite scriptures:

For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. (Romans 8:18)

It’s simple and I never get tired of it. I found it when I was going through my divorce and it’s been with me ever since. It reminds me that whatever trial I’m experiencing is only temporary and once I get through to the other side things are going to be so good, I won’t even remember what I was upset about.

That’s what it says to me.

I’ll be honest with you. I have really been going through it since the last week of February. Things have not been all sunshine and roses around here. I took a good two weeks and did nothing but lay on my couch and cry. It was when my son said, “You look terrible” that I realized I had to get off my ass and start moving.

I understand sadness. I understand depression. Every woman in my immediate family is depressed. In the past, whenever I would feel a wave of depression coming on I would do everything I could to get over it really quickly. This time I just sat with it. I allowed myself to wallow in it until I couldn’t stand it anymore. I prayed a lot. I wrote in my journal. I worked out. I shopped. Than I reminded myself of Romans 8:18.

I am so ridiculously happy right now. Things have changed so much in the past eleven weeks … I cannot even begin to tell you. Life is not perfect. But (for me) it’s the imperfections that keep it interesting.


Shai said...

I loved this post. It was honest and inspiring. Many folks want to act like being depressed is weak and that you should not share it with others.

I know how you felt. I REALLY know, it almost took me out. Someone praying for me helped. I still get depressed at times, I just don't let it get me into that scary dark area anymore.

I like the scripture and will add to my favorites.

TJ said...

That's a good verse. Thank you for this post. It is positive, yet very realistic.

LadyLee said...

This post tells it how it is: life ebbs and it flows. We gotta ride it out when it's bad, be thankful and enjoy it when it is good!

ShellyShell said...

You sound so positve! I LOVE IT!!

Remnants of U said...

Your honesty is inspiring. I'm getting a message today..My cousin sent me a similar scripture today.

Icey said...

Loved this post as I do most of your offerings!

People also underestimate the power of counseling! I say it all the time but I think it saved my life! I am glad you allowed yourself the temporary sadness so you could get to your happy!!!!

Luv said...


as you know..i know depression all to well..and well i am trying to get up off the couch.. but i want to have my cry first.. we are in this together..

remember silence is what keeps us in ruts..we have to share this stuff..

much love