I am a relatively happy person. Generally, I prefer happiness to the alternative. Admittedly, this was not always the case. There have been times in the not-so-distant past when I have been characterized as an evil bitch.
Hard to believe, right?
Well, being evil all the time did not serve me so I had to make some changes. Now, I wouldn’t consider myself a “Mary Sunshine” and I don’t see rainbows and butterflies where there are none but I do have a huge amount of faith which allows me to see the bright side in most situations.
This can be annoying to some people who can’t see beyond their current situation. Sorry.
I have been blogging for about five years and for those of you who have been around for a while you may remember that this is one of my favorite scriptures:
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. (Romans 8:18)
It’s simple and I never get tired of it. I found it when I was going through my divorce and it’s been with me ever since. It reminds me that whatever trial I’m experiencing is only temporary and once I get through to the other side things are going to be so good, I won’t even remember what I was upset about.
That’s what it says to me.
I’ll be honest with you. I have really been going through it since the last week of February. Things have not been all sunshine and roses around here. I took a good two weeks and did nothing but lay on my couch and cry. It was when my son said, “You look terrible” that I realized I had to get off my ass and start moving.
I understand sadness. I understand depression. Every woman in my immediate family is depressed. In the past, whenever I would feel a wave of depression coming on I would do everything I could to get over it really quickly. This time I just sat with it. I allowed myself to wallow in it until I couldn’t stand it anymore. I prayed a lot. I wrote in my journal. I worked out. I shopped. Than I reminded myself of Romans 8:18.
I am so ridiculously happy right now. Things have changed so much in the past eleven weeks … I cannot even begin to tell you. Life is not perfect. But (for me) it’s the imperfections that keep it interesting.
Hard to believe, right?
Well, being evil all the time did not serve me so I had to make some changes. Now, I wouldn’t consider myself a “Mary Sunshine” and I don’t see rainbows and butterflies where there are none but I do have a huge amount of faith which allows me to see the bright side in most situations.
This can be annoying to some people who can’t see beyond their current situation. Sorry.
I have been blogging for about five years and for those of you who have been around for a while you may remember that this is one of my favorite scriptures:
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. (Romans 8:18)
It’s simple and I never get tired of it. I found it when I was going through my divorce and it’s been with me ever since. It reminds me that whatever trial I’m experiencing is only temporary and once I get through to the other side things are going to be so good, I won’t even remember what I was upset about.
That’s what it says to me.
I’ll be honest with you. I have really been going through it since the last week of February. Things have not been all sunshine and roses around here. I took a good two weeks and did nothing but lay on my couch and cry. It was when my son said, “You look terrible” that I realized I had to get off my ass and start moving.
I understand sadness. I understand depression. Every woman in my immediate family is depressed. In the past, whenever I would feel a wave of depression coming on I would do everything I could to get over it really quickly. This time I just sat with it. I allowed myself to wallow in it until I couldn’t stand it anymore. I prayed a lot. I wrote in my journal. I worked out. I shopped. Than I reminded myself of Romans 8:18.
I am so ridiculously happy right now. Things have changed so much in the past eleven weeks … I cannot even begin to tell you. Life is not perfect. But (for me) it’s the imperfections that keep it interesting.
7 comments:
I loved this post. It was honest and inspiring. Many folks want to act like being depressed is weak and that you should not share it with others.
I know how you felt. I REALLY know, it almost took me out. Someone praying for me helped. I still get depressed at times, I just don't let it get me into that scary dark area anymore.
I like the scripture and will add to my favorites.
That's a good verse. Thank you for this post. It is positive, yet very realistic.
This post tells it how it is: life ebbs and it flows. We gotta ride it out when it's bad, be thankful and enjoy it when it is good!
You sound so positve! I LOVE IT!!
Your honesty is inspiring. I'm getting a message today..My cousin sent me a similar scripture today.
Loved this post as I do most of your offerings!
People also underestimate the power of counseling! I say it all the time but I think it saved my life! I am glad you allowed yourself the temporary sadness so you could get to your happy!!!!
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as you know..i know depression all to well..and well i am trying to get up off the couch.. but i want to have my cry first.. we are in this together..
remember silence is what keeps us in ruts..we have to share this stuff..
much love
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