Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Maintain Optimism While Learning Patience

This morning’s run: 2.5 miles in 28 minutes. Not bad but I really need to increase my speed if I want to reach my goal of finishing the 5k in 30 minutes. The race is in 10 days. Hope springs eternal.

I have learned the greatest lesson in patience during this process. Putting one foot in front of the other is the only way to get to the finish line. There are no shortcuts. I’ve searched for shortcuts my whole life. Going through the process is not something that I find attractive. I need to be gratified instantly.

Want to learn patience? Train for a 5k.

I’ll admit that going through it is not always fun but when you get closer to the goal, the excitement builds and all you can think about is victory. This concept applies to many aspects of my life.

I didn’t know how I was going to get over my ex. The break up was long and drawn out and I really just wanted to wake up one day and be “on with my life”. Why doesn’t it work that way? I suppose if it were that easy then there would be no lesson. I think I finally have it figured out though. That relationship is in the past and I’m getting closer to being in a place where I’m ready to try again. Close but not quite there, as evidenced by yesterday’s post. I’m open to the idea which is definitely better than where I was a year ago. Last year I told myself that if I’m supposed to be alone for the rest of my life than so be it. This year? Not so much. We’re not built to walk through this life alone. That’s funny because for almost 30 years I have been trying to prove that I could go it alone. I have wasted so much time. But I suppose it’s not too late. Where am I in the process? Well, one thing I know that I definitely need to deal with is controlling my emotions. That is huge and I never wanted to admit how emotional I am but I am. It’s crazy how easy it is for me to “catch feelings”. It’s my downfall. I don’t want to deny my emotions and I refuse to turn into an emotionless shrew, but I am determined to be a bit more logical in my decision-making.

What else?

Once this race is completed I’ll need another goal to pursue. I have to keep setting these goals in order to challenge myself. I have no earthly idea why I feel like I need to challenge myself. Part of me really just wants to float through life carefree and oblivious to all that goes on around me. But I wouldn’t be fulfilled and I know it.

I’m beginning to ramble so this is probably a good place to end this post. I listened to this song this morning as I was completing the 2.5 miles. Great song for the end of a run … “you can win as long as you keep your head to the sky”


TJ said...

I love that song!!

Ca88andra said...

Well done on your training! I do admire you for achieving what you have. As for getting over an ex and finding a new partner - well its been over 7 years now since my last relationship, and I'm still hesitant about going into another. But I wish you the best!

Diva (in Demand) said...

I'm so proud of you Chele and I can't wait to see you cross that finish line!!!!!

But let's get back to these emotions.....emotions aren't meant to be controlled (I don't think). I think people are supposed to be emotional but always trying to control em is what makes us nuts. hmmmmm


Remnants of U said...

You go Chele! I admire your determination & challenge to yourself to run the 5k.

I like this song too.

Kristy said...

You are amazing - still trying to challenge yourself beyond what you think you can do.