Sunday, April 8, 2012
I have spent many years beating myself up. Putting myself down. Telling myself I'm not good enough. The truth of my past seems to reinforce those beliefs. I understand that you cannot get to my age without having a past. That how it works. But I now realize that the missteps of my past don't make me a bad person. The events of my past have molded me and taught me lessons that I would not have otherwise learned. Therefore, I am eternally grateful for my past. I have no regrets. I don't regret the marriages, the annullment and the divorce. I don't regret the broken relationships. I don't regret the poor financial decisions. I regret nothing. I have learned so much and I have accomplished plenty in 47 years. And I still have so much to do. My best years are ahead of me. I am blessed and I will never again feel less than. The Bible says that I am above and not beneath, that I am the head and not the tail. Who am I to argue?