Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Forty Seven


Last night I was relaxing in the bath, allowing the smell of lavender to envelope me and then it dawned on me: half of my life is over. Don't worry, this is not a sad, morbid post about my mortality blah blah blah. It's like when I treat myself to the occasional Snicker bar. I'm so excited about the chocolate and peanuts and I rush through the first half. Then I look down and I realize that half that candy bar is gone. The first half was so good but I know I really have to savor the second half because once it's gone ... it's gone.

That's how I'm feeling this morning. I really have to savor the second half.

I've done quite in bit during the first half:

I got married. In fact, I was so ambitious that I did it twice!
I had my kids
I bought a home
I made some money
I did some traveling
I made a lot of mistakes

It seems to me that my first half was populated with striving. I was always of the mind that I had to get something. I had to achieve. There's nothing wrong with that. Without goals where are we?

But the second half is going to be different. I don't feel the urgency to get get get. I feel the need to exhale. I feel the need to just breathe. Have you ever felt that way? The first 47 years have been a whirlwind. I've enjoyed most of it but not as much as I could have. I've allowed stress to overtake me more times than I should have. I'm done with that.

There are still things that I want to achieve in the second half. I want to visit Italy. I want to get married again and I want a house on the beach.

Small things. :)

But more importantly I want my spirit to be calm. I want to always be thankful in every circumstance and every situation. I want to view every single day as a gift from God.

Because it is.


But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matthew 6:33)





5 comments:

LadyLee said...

**HaPPy BiRTday Chele**

"But more importantly I want my spirit to be calm. I want to always be thankful in every circumstance and every situation. I want to view every single day as a gift from God."

Wow... I want to get to THAT point... By any means necessary.

I think u hit the nail on the head. That early part of life is all about striving... and let's not even talk about the stress.

These latter years... I need my spirit balanced and at peace.

Happy Birthday! Enjoy!!

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday!!!

I pray that you have peace like you've never known...more happy than you can handle,,,,

dee in san diego

TJ said...

47. How Awesome!

Yay for beach houses, Italy and enjoying the journey AND the destination!!! All the best!

Kristy said...

You have a great attitude, lady! Happy birthday to you!

Reggie said...

Funny, just last week someone asked me how old I was and I said 47. The funny part is that I'm actually 46, I guess it's the mind that's the first to go.

Happy Birthday.